Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can part2

[marina7]

We then sat in couch and H came over
With presents. I was at all. I said No

H said kids you see all those bags.
Trio's eyes light up. See which of those
Have your names. They ran. With smiles
I seen H smiling.

They where so happy and just saying wow.
H comes back with more gifts.

H got us couple families game. After Trios
Unwrapping. Trio's said can we play a family game

H smiled said Yes if mom is ok I nodded as yes.
We played this game. We laughed H was teaching us

I have not felt this way in a while.
S9 was getting crabby because is getting late we cleaning
Up.
H said your ready for another dessert. Kids where at all
Another one. D10 said ok we staying here. H smiled.

As we ate another yummy dessert.
This one was peppermint ice cream with layers
Of crushed oreos. So yummy. With fudge on top.

I ask H after words can we help clean H said no is ok
We talk for a few. Also kids where talking. H noticed s10
H ask how is he. I explained some new behavior of food
He was never a picky eater now he says the texture of
Food tastes different. H explain to me Kids with A.D.D or
ADHD could cause that especially what s10 has been through

It now made Sense when H explained this. Because now s10
His sensors and senses are bad. He wakes up with any noise
Or lights or food smell for him gives him certain taste.

I'll be honest am not book smart am street smart.
Where H was going to be a doctor for neurologist
Then H said she then changed to Therapist and then
Changed her mind and became a physical therapist who
Specializes in Nerve damage, when your nerves disconnect
From your brain. H is super smart she was my Physical
Therapist when I got hurt at work and got CRPS. H
Specializes in all that.

H knows me in a personally knows me. For 3 yrs or 4
I spend 2 hours almost everyday for 2yrs with H.

She was my physical therapist. So she knew W as W use
To sometimes drive me, after W left H was there brought
Us groceries help change my badge. Help me because again
W was supposed to take trio's for 3 weeks while I heal W drop
Them at hospital saying am done.

So I remember telling H a week later what W did. H said why
Didn't you called me. H was upset and that's when a real
Friendship began. I honestly seen H as she would not want
To be friends. If you see me I love tattoos. I am down to
Earth. Where H is very quiet No kids, just a cat.

So it's nice to have a friend like that,
H said I'll look up something's that can help s10 with
His sensors, sleeping and hopefully we see things turn
Around. I agreed and Thank her so much.

So we where about to get ready to leave H said I have another
Gift for me. I opened it was a bible, H is Christian
A couple weeks ago I lost my prayer book. H didn't know
So it was a blessing getting a prayer and bible in one.
I told H the story how I lost my book. H smiled and said
Maybe someone needed it more and he then told me to get
You one. Everything works in mysterious ways.

I did agree it gave me goosebumps. How God works in
Mysterious ways.

As we where saying goodbye, kids gave h a big hug
And kept thanking H. I also said thank you so much
H said lets fo this again. Trio's said yeah... yeah mom
Say yeah... I smiled and said ok sounds like a plan.

We hugged and H says let me know when trio's make it safe
H said love you kids. Kids where all giggly.

Soooooo... kids jump in car Trios say are you dating miss H.
I said No H is a friend. D10 said well mom is ok. I said no
I promise you am not Miss H is just a good friend.

I then had to explain just because mommy is gay doesn't
Mean I can't have girls as friends. Like my best friend
D10 says bestfriend has a husband mom. I ask why did
They ask that and assume.

D10 says because W says all the girlfriends you have as friends
Are not your friends mommy m dates them. I said well first
W should have not said that. And remember friends come
In different size,shape and sex. I have more friends I just
Trust certain ones around you three.

D10 replied that makes sense so you trust best friend, H and R
And C with us. I said exactly, I named a couple of other friends

That they didn't know, I then explained because these are just
People I go out. They are people I feel you trio's don't have to meet.

So on the drive back home was explaining that just because your
Straight, gay or married everyone should have friends.

Friends doesn't mean you date them. Friends are just friends
And they agreed.

W still has a way of always confusing my kids I am grateful my
Head is level enough to try to explain to them the best way I can.

So now they know H has been there for me. I just never let kids
Meet H until I felt it was right which this weekend was. And I am
Glad we went.

We also put Christmas tree up. Well the trio's did I just monitor
Them. This year I did feel better than last year and we decorated
Inside and outside. It feels good.