Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can part2

[marina7]

DnJ,

Yes I wanted to test it, due to me moving my things
From shed to storage I figured this would have been
A good idea to give W her items.

As I wrote I knew W wasn't ready and I am glad
I did that. Maybe oneday W will thank me or
kids I know will be thankful.

Kyh,
Your right is not easy, and of course many
People like best friend doesn't understand why
Am I keeping W things I tried to explain to bf
But I also remember many friends will not understand
Unless they been through the hell we have on here.

I know is hard for me as I know I have her things
But I tuck totes in the back of storage and they will
stay there.

Journaling,

Earlier in my journal I wrote how W was starting
W mess again trying to use s10 as a pawn. I now
Have a back bone I politely say No No No W you don't
Want to do that or Police will be called have s10 always ready

W goes on a rant how W has a life my world doesn't
Revolves around you. W walks away stomping feet
Leave me alone.

I just stood there silent just watching W behavior
W then goes to the car and hands me a plastic
Bag wrap around.

W says here is s10 elf. I nodded s10 he can't breathe
I said ok s10 mommy will save him. I opened bag
And gave Elfy elf in the shelf. Air mouth to mouth punp
elf chest and boom. Elf is alive. S10 smiled hug and said
Thank you mommy. At this time W just staring at me simply
Looking at me. I said ok lets go. And let's get home is cold.

Still w is standing out there. While am making s10 feel
Better.
Now trio's are buckled up. W says you are crazy you know
They are fake.

I just look at W and wanted to yell No sh&t I know Santa
And elf are not real but our kids still believe so please don't
F this up too.

But no I just drove off, I hope my face said it all to W.
As we where driving S10 is just talking. How how his elf
Was behaving and giggling.

And he was smitten how I saved Elfy.
S10 explained how W wrapped Elfy in bag and s10
Was crying please don't and W yeld he not real stop acting
Like your crazy.

While s10 explained that red light comes on so we are at a
Stop. I reached over and said what do you think s10.

S10 said well yeah he is Elfy is real because you brought
Him back home. Trio's said Santa is real they protest in
Car while I started driving.

One thing caught my ear while them 3 talking
Not sure which kid said it but yeld W is a scrooge
W is a scrooge they repeatedly said this I just drove
Silent.

Did this anger me yes, I feel W is so miserable why not
Also make Trios miserable in ruining their Christmas.

W knows how important the holiday's are for me. To
Make sure our kids always know why is Christmas here
And is about giving and everything that goes with it.

W also knows how the trio's look forward to elf on the
Shelf. Yes Santa little helpers, I would say these Elfs
Stir up the house during the holidays.

I must say I get a kick being the elf lol..

If you don't know what elf on the shelf google it.

I have not seen my kids smile in a while but since elfs
Are back they been smiling and giggling.

I have done some fun things with the Elfs
The Trios usually wake up with toys being scattered
Or the elf paper toilet our kitchen, or they had a syrup party
With spaghetti... lol

And usually the mess the Elfs make the Trios must clean up
After them.

So if you can picture 3 kids and 3 Elfs bahahaha yes
I always have to come up with ideas for the Elfs.

So yesterday a friend of mine who is a physical therapist
Reach out to me, ask was trio's and I available for dinner.

I of course said yes friend H said ok here my address see you
Then.
Kids and I dress up nice to dinner party.


H lives in a beautiful area and home. Very nice
I was like wow. As you walk up to her house it's like
A magazine home. And once H opened her door
D10 and I was at all. Literally inside home look like
A magazine set up. Very Christmas H had 4 Christmas tree and gift

The boys are boys they kick shoes off, and run d10 had to
Calm her brothers lol. D10 says boys act your age this
Is not a playground. H and I laughed h said look who
Has taken the role of mom. I nodded yes am working on
That.

D10 now feels she must take care of me and brother's.

Remember I was more like a dad. So d10 feels now is her
Job since W left us.

H has a beautiful cat, white fluffy with blue eyes.
Boys where trying to chase the cat a couple time h and I
Had to say no no boys. While d10 just drew or learning her sign
Language.

H and I talk. Table was set up so beautiful I honestly didn't
Want to touch the table lol. You would have thought I was
The president that's how beautiful the house was set up.

I said H I didn't know you cook, H smiled said No I don't
Only on my special days. Or for you and kids.
I just smiled.

I honestly felt like a teenager not knowing what to do.

H made salad wow amazing salad with apples,pears and
Dry cherries, with a cherry dressing for the salad,

Then pasta, wow so tasty, with homemade bread so warm
Melted in our mouth,
Dessert was jello with cheesecake filling between and whip cream

Then we cleaned up. H was so kind making sure kids and I
Wanted anything else.