Hey Col! Aaawww you sure know how to make a guy ! I have to get caught up with you... Hope things are going well!
So someone asked me the date today and when I replied.. 'I think it's Dec 8th' a thought went off in my mind... like there is something about this day but I couldn't pin point it. Later on I got it... today is one year since D was final! Wow! Does time fly or what?!? The other thing that I realized was that I only saw ex for 5 minutes in all of 2018 at a wake. Of course some would say, well of course you never see her, why would you?!? There are no kids involved. Well... we grew up together so this the least I have seen her in a year since we met... almost 25 years ago! I just thought that was crazy. The desire to be back with her is zero.. zip.. nada! It is a weird feeling in a way.
That got me to thinking about what I have done in the last three years. I have traveled a ton! I can't believe I used to get anxious before flying. Hawaii, England, Ireland, China and multiple places in the US. Now I fall asleep on the tarmac... Thanks Ex! That is a great gift! Half marathons, marathon, good hikes, new friends, new hobbies.... not bad! I will be selling my house in the spring and who knows what is next.... not me.
Funny you brought up the dating Coly. I was thinking about that a bit today. Ex and I were on and off until about 15 months ago. So maybe 2019 is the year to make that happen?? I don't know. I did have two dates in 2018 (woo-hoo!... 2 more than I had the previous year!) but I can't even really count those because I knew nothing was going to happen. They were just very persistent so I said sure, why not... but really had no interest. It was good to get out but those were a while back now. Anyway, the bottom line is I have to let go and be a little more vulnerable in 2019. I'm definitely looking forward to the new year.
! I have to get caught up with you... Hope things are going well!