It has been a few days since I've properly posted a journal entry. It is still Christmas season in London so there have been lots of drinks to go to. In previous years I would have given most of them a miss, or made an appearance, had one drink, and then headed home. It is an hour commute home and I always hated being tipsy on the train. Still hate being tipsy on the train, but I am enjoying the drinks nights.
I went out with the 'boy' (I am going to call the 28 year old - who is actually 30, that from now on). Most unsuitable but had a nice night out dancing. We talked some and he is broken and filling the void with alcohol and sex. But he is fun to watch and being around him boosts my self esteem. I will not be sleeping with him though. I am too old for that.
I am a little hungover this morning. H came over at 8:30 this morning to pick up the girls for netball. I was planning on giving it a miss today as would rather stay in bed. D12 woke up and said she didn't want to go, so he ended up hanging around here for two hours until D9's game started. I sat downstairs watching cartoons with him and D9 for a bit, but was obvious he was in a mood, so went up to my room, closed the door and slept for an hour. When I came back down he had been putting some Christmas lights out the front. He said something about some of them being broken and I would have to buy some new ones. I mumbled OK. I offered to keep D12 with me while he took D9 to netball (it is his day and he is supposed to have both of them) and then said I would come into town with them after. He snapped "so you can get your car from the station". I said "yes, and I thought I'd come have lunch with you guys". He wasn't having any of that. Simply said "we are watching a movie and just getting snacks there". This is unlike him. Normally he is very courteous when it comes to spending time together with the kids. I don't know what has happened to turn him (again).
So, will get my car and have lunch in town on my own. I might also get a facial and do some Christmas shopping before he returns the kids at 5. He is going out tonight. I however, unlike him, will not behave like a moody cow just because he has been out boozing with his buddies.
