Determined now as I move forward..

[Dtrmned]

Thanks LH.
This is my greatest fear right now. That we are better together than apart. I know she is off doing her "thing" whatever that may be. I'm sure it is not how I imagine it, but somewhere between her lying in bed crying over a picture of us to picture her with another person, and it would be from the one extreme to the other across the board! I also know that this is the "euphoric" period for her. She has escaped! (in her mind). She is out of the "problem marriage" and she can now live her life. She has her buffer in place for a little while financially. Life will happen sooner rather than later. Again, I don't wish her well, I do know that life is rough. And doing it alone is hard when you've had someone helping and pretty much taking care of everything for a long number of years.

Dropped my kids off at school today, First time knowing I won't see them for a week. I'm also positive that I will see them sometime as I'm sure they will have forgotten something they will need to pick up. I told my W that she needs to make sure I am home prior to her coming into my house. "We" of course lived there, but since she has moved out, and I have no key or access to her home, I think it only fair that I be there when she wants to come into mine. Is this the right thing to do?

My GAL activities are booked for the week, but I am still feeling the loneliness creep in since the kids are gone. God I miss them so much already! Great time watching a movie with my son last night and an awesome conversation with my daughter last night and a great brief one this morning, so VERY happy Daddy again!!!

I think going as dim as possible is the best thing. W needs time to process, go through her stuff, time to realize that I wasn't as bad as she thought, and also time to realize that the grass isn't always greener. For me, it is GAL, concentration on work and planning fun stuff for when I get the kids back. I know I already have a few things planned for next weekend with them!

All advice appreciated. Again, going as dim/dark as I can and letting her do her thing. SHE has to come to any realization (if she does or if she even does in time) for this to happen. I can just DB, GAL, Work and have some fun.

This is the first post that I have made that will say that this is Friday and my family is now not in the same home.