Not a lot new with my sitch. Been maintaining my DB’ing and excelling at the life I have created for myself. My confidence and approach to life has definitely had a noticeable impact in how I interact with anyone I interact with. I have had this carefree attitude and sense of peace and tranquillity for the last 3 or so weeks and several people have made comments about how happy I now seem. Been consistent in running 25 miles a week, eating healthy, dressing nice. Grew my hair out for first time in 15 years and I love my look.
This week I ran into some close friends of in-laws at grocery store and they literally had pause and said “holly $hit” upon recognizing me and how good they thought I looked. They said I looked literally about half of what I did last time they saw me at MIL funeral. I just said thanks for the compliments and said I had worked to drop a lot lot of baggage over the last nine months..and went about my way. (It felt really good...not going to lie)
I have also come to the realization that I put that women I met on a pedestal fairly quick as she was everything my WAW was not. I’m glad I was able to recognize this early...and I have pulled way back from getting any closer to her. I tend to believe this is a feeling that WAS feels when they Initially get into an EA/PA. I realize I need further heal myself....otherwise I could hurt someone and I refuse to do that...
W has somewhat reverted back to her cold demeanor...but continue to get glimpses of the kindness in our brief interactions. I don’t put any thought into it...she has her journey to go on at her pace.
Have S this weekend and his birthday will be on Monday. Plan a party on Sunday and have a couple of his friends parties as well. Also plan to go look at area Xmas light displays around town..so fun and active weekend planned.
Me - 38 W-37 S6 M 10 years T 13yrs BD 3/18 W moves out 4/18 W files 7/18
