13 years and 2 kids pt. 3.

[Hurt213]

Journal:

So, yesterday evening, I had the house for myself with the kids, and we had a great time, S1 was REALLY tired, and after having bathed him and D4, he nearly fell asleep onto of me while we where playing in the couch with his cars. I tugged him in, and D4 really enjoyed just having alone time with me (so Did I!). So she actually got to stay up 1 hour later than usual, and we just watched a movie, talked about santa and decided to post a letter for him today.

Today also marks the day where I am getting the tattoo I have been wanting for a long time, so im super stoked about that. I will be getting my kids names, with some arrows that symbolizes that whatever pulls us doesn't matter, cause we are like the arrow, always moving in the direction we aimed at. Then their birthdays will be in roman numbers under the arrows. I have been putting it off, but now I said, yep! hurt, you want this, so do this. I can't wait to get it done .

Tonight I will be going to a friends house, since "she who shall not be named (Voldemort?)" is getting the kids today and will be at the house. So I am just gonna spend today having fun, and plan some things and activities for the coming week with the kids and also activities just for me.

I have been spending some time rereading the detachment thread, the validation thread, and especially the Sandi rules. I think I have got myself together again, and I will implement the rules of Sandi to the best of my abilities. And If interpert them correctly? this will also help me detach in a healthy manner. I will be upbeat, content, but not engaging, and just let Voldemort do what s(he), does, and not get caught up reactional / emotional about it, and if I do, I will fake it, and walk away to vent somewhere alone.

Its gonna be a great day. I hope you all have a good one. I will check back in later .