Work out? Done. But I need to stick with that, which is an issue for me historically.
Out for dinner? Done. Watched basketball (college and pro) and was overjoyed to see game of favorite NHL team (Blues) on TV, so watched that too. Tried to work on confidence / talking with waitress—would try to be more assertive with ordering, look her in eyes, call her by first name when I could. She was cute, which helps.
Something nice-smelling? Done.
Coffee shop to hang out and grade? Done.
Still need to look into meet-ups.
Though it was nice to get out and be around others and do my things and (admittedly) see that there are lots of pretty ladies out there, it was hard seeing couples out and about holding hands.
And when I’m driving into work / school this morning, I heard an ad for Catholic singles online. /sigh
I know that’s nowhere close to my sitch right now. Also makes me sad for the woman that my W is—when dating, engaged and early MR, she was very devout, and we lined up very nicely in many respects. Now? Not so much—I’m not totally sure where she’s at with God, but I know that’s not my business or issue to fix.
I also know that in hearing something like that ad I have to guard myself / my heart—to still remain physically (but definitely) emotionally faithful to her. I can’t have another woman swoop in and become tight with me—not yet, not anytime soon. One thing I offered up in confession was the strength to continue to live out wedding vows, even though things are difficult right now, and that there is so much temptation out there in general.
