making it about me...

[marina7]

Sjohn,

I get the part that it feels like we doing something wrong,
Like cheating.

I remember just going to movies and drink like a month ago
And I was like this is weird and kept looking over my shoulder
As if W was going walk in and say Wth your doing.

And John if you feel like it's wrong then it means it's to
Soon. Your not ready.

Speaking for me I wasn't. And when I do go out with friends
I make it clear is just friends.

And honestly when is the right time. We don't know I go
To divorce groups and they say their is no time line. It can
Take years.

I think you miss being wanted. Having a woman want you.
I don't blame you. We are all adults. We miss that desire to
Feel another person wanting us.

But don't confuse wanting, needing to start a new relationship.

What I have done is go out on groups so we don't do something
We will regret. Again this works for me.

Now your W sounds like mines. My W stop being angry
But also just not herself is weird to explain but I know she isn't herself.

I honestly have stop looking for signs. Because it puts me in a spiral
I only can handle myself and I am doing that.

And your right Holiday season doesn't help us.
We all here must get through this season.

Try to remember the good of W, oh trust me is hard I know
But if your standing and see memories slipping away. If you
can handle it. Find the good memories and hold on to those.

Remember...
One day at a time...