13 years and 2 kids pt. 3.

[Hurt213]

LH,

I would lie, if I said that this what not my thoughts for a long time, however, she would still be the WW who betrayed me, who lied and who manipulated me. And I do not want that. I have one life, and I want to make it a goddamn great experience, with a person who want me, for the person I am. It might be her down the road, but even if their thing does not work out, it doesn't mean she has changed one bit, i just mean that she wants to rebound on me until she finds something interesting again. The thing is, I wouldn't do it either way, because I would have to be 100% certain, that she was in this because she wants to be, and that she can only show me through her actions. I can't put my kids through the rough break up process that will occur when the house sells, only to give them hopes for R, and then she leaves again because she never processed and worked through the things she wants to figure out on her own.

So yes, they have been my thoughts, but honestly, no, they aren't at this time in place.