Detach man, no expectation. Why don’t you take D4 to another place if you have the chance to visit her? You need to go dark with W or as AS says, to go dim considering you have D4. She has you where she wants. You are still giving her some cake. Sorry if you think I’m too harsh on you. I feel the need to tell you my opinion.
Stay strong Did, detach some more. Let W go, free yourself.