DB again... too late or last strike

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Old thread - http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2823979#Post2823979

I've been really focused on doing what's good for me the last few days. I have been getting some audio training with the angry therapist who has great stuff for men. The course Im doing is called single on purpose and really focuses on working on yourself. It has been great for me so far. I have a new coach / mentor Im going to start working with.
Excited to start new coaching with a new mentor. Been GAL with friends / work associates who are becoming new friends. Older good guys.

That being said getting started to back to working on me had some road blocks / regrets / unhealthy decisions.... Went online dating app briefly a few days ago. Saw W on Bumble, got flushed anxious reaction... still attached. Slowly dropping the rope as best I can... deleted all dating apps. Im not in a place to date. She probably isnt either but what she does is up to her. As you all say I cant let her affect me so much with her words or even her actions.

Today I had d4 swim stuff she gets swim lessons through school today. I texted W - Is it cool if I come play with D4 for 30-45 min when I drop swim stuff. If you are going to hang with us would you not on your phone unless it is work / family / car related. I know it is your house and I appreciate your consideration.

Trying to set a healthy boundary, mistake or ok? I guess it may make me look weak to be anxious about her phone and I should just care less.

Sat at table for a 5-10 min together. I was in a good mood. I could tell W had walls up and I didnt focus on her kept it light. Joked about SAnta and I talking and I heard D4 was good and shot him a text shes getting some good presents etc. W laughed, talked to D4, then did leggos with d4 for 20-30 min and left.

I know shes dating and I dont want to hear about men etc. D4 wanted to play upstairs and I still have a hard time not snooping in W stuff. When we were sleeping together she showed me drawer with journal sexy underwear toy etc... I said d4 lets go downstairs and only stayed up there for a min at two.

I work until 530, W meeting me with D4 at chipotle near my work not sure if we will eat together or not but I am really focused on me and not her. Huge mistake to focus on her so much the last couple months while dating. Lost progress, maybe lost last chance.... but hoping to get one more chance in a month or two after giving space. Maybe I wont even want the chance by then. Trying to trust life and not control everything.

Will continue to DB / GAL... thanks all