True doldrums as far as my sitch is concerned. Not much sniffing on W's part. No pursuit on my part. Life is going on.
Had a good session with MC yesterday. He brought me to the realization that both W and I are on the path to D, which I have accepted as a possibility. He said that it is possible that R is in the cards, but that I cannot (just as you folks have told me repeatedly here) accept R as my only option. Surrendering is what he continues to call it.
We talked further and he told me that W is going to go through the same process I have gone through. I have been humbled, remorseful, and this is the process I am working through, clarity . W will need to go through that same process and when/if she shows the stuff in bold is when I will know that she is growing.
Talked more in detail about the signs of W wanting to R and that how W is waiting for me to be strong enough to pour out her heart to me. He agrees with Sandi's consensus that the D bomb could be dropped. He further elaborated that she may just start pouring her heart out about out sitch. He warned me that when she does that it will just "come out", like her throwing up. It's going to be a mess and it's going to be unpleasant. My job is to, as you folks have told me, validate. As she continues to go through this journey and express her feelings, the stuff she tells me will become clearer. What it means, we really do not know. That is not in our hands.
GAL plans tonight and this weekend. Possible all day photoshoot with two of my co-workers from my old job next weekend. Cautiously optimistic .
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