I’ll get back to detaching as best as I can, and I’ll do my best to give her time and space.
I don’t take it out on her emotionally—at least I don’t think I do. But yeah, I don’t trust her nearly as much.
I still get called ‘Daddy’ by her, but this is usually around the kiddos. Over the weekend, I did get a ‘baby’ from her, and it slipped out as natural as could be. I also know part of detaching is not getting too high over stuff like this.
Right now I just crave any sort of physical and / or emotional intimacy—last night I had a dream where I had a very long, deep hug from someone else, and it felt beautiful (I’m not involved with someone else physically or even close to emotionally, but I also know things in my subconscious mind process themselves through dreams).
I’ve also thought what you thought about the bank account—could be a possibility. Also been checking our joint account, and haven’t seen anything else yet. IC brought up possibility that it could be nothing—she opens up an account to innocently pay for other things from that account.
W is home every night—and it’s unlikely she is sneaking around with guy during the day. She is out on maternity leave and is home with YS for up until Christmas. Also, this guy works further away (we’re in SoCal, he works in IE, we are near the coast—so it would be a hike even on a good day). I guess I’m more concerned about EA, possibility of her looking at this guy as an option.
I can update my signature going forward, and I appreciate the prayers.
Since I don’t need to do LRT, what exactly should I be doing, then? IC says what I describe sounds like LRT, and then I get advice here. Ugh so confused. Thanks all!
