13 yrs and two kids pt. 2.

[Hurt213]

Journaling:

So its my birthday today... In my timezone is 07.00 in the morning, and me and kids have been up since 05.00. Let me fill you in on what those two hours have already brung with them.

So, at 05.00 I am woken up by WW and the kids (I thought it was a nice gesture seeing as we are still in the same house, and I would of course had taken the kids to sing for her, on her birthday, if it had been the other way around - for the kids sake). So they enter the MBR, and behold, there is the WW in her underwear, yep she didn't even think of putting on some pants and a shirt, which I found odd (most likely a temp check on my birthday, the devil wears black panties I can tell you......) Anyways, they sing for me, and then puts some presents on my duvet. I open them, and it is some different sorts of candy, some magnets that says worlds greatest dad, and then a gift certificate for a local shop (expensive compared to the other gifts). There was also a card saying t"hank you for being wonderful" and "you are the worlds greatest dad, love from D4, S1, and WW". Kids then hugged me, and I got out of bed. WW then stood up, blocked my path and hugged me. Now the temp check begins. Im in my underwear, she is in her underwear, and im like wtf.. She hugs me, and I try to end the hug by pulling away. WW then hugs me tighter, and pushes her body even closer to mine. Then I push away, and just leave the room - what in gods name....

So WW had to leave early for a checkup at hospital, so before she left, I went to her bathroom, where she was getting herself ready to go. I had th expensive gift certificate in my hand, and said "WW, thank you so much for the candy, magnets and the card from the kids, that was very considerate of you to do that on behalf of them. This gift however, is expensive, and from you. I can't accept that, as we shouldn't do that to each other anymore.". She then responded with blank eyes (and then she became angry I could see "I can with my own money whatever I want, Hurt..." I said "of course you can, but no thank you". Then I left.

She didn't mention it, and ended up leaving the house without saying goodbye. Now I am in the house with the kids, waiting for the new brokers to arrive. WW texted me yesterday about the papers she had to sign. She asked, if we change our mind, and decide not to sell, what the costs would be? - Another temp check I am sure. Well anyways, she signed the papers, and they are ready to be delivered in a couple of hours. At first I was sad that she signed them, but I realized, we already did this once, and nothing has changed other than the name of the brokers, so I should push those feelings aside.

I wrote her a text (im dumb, sorry). Because I felt bad about the way I turned her down, and I fuckn shouldn't, I am not properly detached, because I shouldn't accept gifts from a person who treated me like trash. anyways the words were: "Thanks once again for the song, flags and presents from the kids as I said earlier, it really was thoughtful of you, and not necessary at all. It made me happy. Drive safely and let me know that everything went well at the hospital."

Thats about all the conversation I will have with her today, as she is not included in any plans. When we get home tonight, she will be have taken off to see a friends (OM, friend, whatever).

So what the heck happened...

I know I shouldn't have texted her, and I know that was bad, at least im learning, albeit its slow lol.

Advice, thoughts, anything