Really good day today. Nothing major happened. Laughed a lot at work. Met a girlfriend for lunch. She laughed when she saw me and said 'who have you been sh@gging' - I told her no-one. I was just finally finding me again. Mentioned that I no longer felt married and she said I hadn't been married for 14 months. That hurt. Other people's measure of how long it should take one to move on. She is also fairly hard lined about boundaries and thinks that I should sell the house and give him his half -- until we cut as many of our ties as possible neither one of us can move on. She thinks it is unhealthy how 'attached' we both still are to one another. I love her but her other half left her suddenly after 11 years and she had moved on (to the man she later married) after 6 months. She is happy and moving on so quickly was right for her.
I just don't think I am like that.
Was offered two jobs today (via industry contacts). One I ran into at the party Thursday night who then emailed me Friday to ask if I'd consider it. I met him for coffee today and they offered me the job (for less money but closer to home), the other is for the same company I am with now, but they want me to take on another role (more money and better role, but with some travel). Neither need an answer until the new year.
3 months ago I would have jumped at the one closer to home but I am building a life in London. There is not much fo me in terms of GAL'g close to him (gym and dinners out with mums). The other role I would never have considered in the past due to the travel requirements, but if H is going to have the kids 50% of the time, then travel would be feasible for me.
I have some thinking to do over the next few weeks.
Couple of texts ...
I parked at H's flat this morning and sent him a text telling him if he needed me to move it I would come back. Got one back saying "That's fine. I am away Thursday and Friday too if you want to park there". I sent one back saying "Thank you". Got a text later on in the day saying "I am in [X] 8 times this month. Let me know if you need me to get you [duty free] cigarettes". I responded "No - I'm good. Thank you anyway". Also got included in group conversation with his mum about D12's Christmas present. I didn't participate.
