I don't see any change in course from W. She had the opportunity to talk to me when I put the separation agreement process in action, but I got nothing from her.
That may still come later, but you probably won't be open to it by then. My ex has just now started reaching out in unexpected ways (don't know if you saw my post elsewhere but she invited me to her mom's for Thanksgiving) but honestly, the old feelings are gone. I still love her and care about her as the mother of my kids and someone I spent many years with, but I can 100% say ILYBINILWY about her. I look at her and I don't see my "wife" anymore. For the longest time I thought this was a temporary thing, call it MLC or whatever, and that my old familiar wife would return, but now I'm convinced she's gone for good. The person she is now has radically different likes/dislikes/memories/attitudes. I'm not saying she is better or worse, just very, very different. The odd thing is I get the sense that the "new" her may be interested in me as more than friends, but I don't share the interest.
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I am done and wanting to close this chapter from a legal point of view. We've been living like we're D for the last 18 months and this is just putting a fine point on it.
I can relate to that, you probably remember me saying that I was the one that ended up pushing the D through. At some point the limbo becomes intolerable and you just want to end it and move on.
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I have decided to start dating in 2019, with or without D papers finalized. D is just a procedural thing now.
Be ready to put your newfound patience to the test, LOL!
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In the mean time, I have lost 20 pounds over the last 12 weeks and my knee is close to being fully healed. I should be able to start working out fully and climbing by early February. I am super excited.
