We all struggle with this, but get more alpha. Alpha might pay attention to WW for giggles but he doesn't hope or care care if the WW is having an aha moment. Alpha doesn't reward W bad behaviors. You can never nice your way out of it. Alpha is going to keep improving himself because he controls his own world.
Don't worry about posting what you look like to reddit, validate yourself. There are some good subs on there to learn from such as MFA, Fitness, etc. Take the advice and build from there. If you feel that you look good you will exude confidence. You will always have imperfections, it is what makes you human and unique. For lifting are you using a LP? SL, SS, Greyskull, Ice Cream, etc.
Keep on moving forward and up!
H(37) W(35) D8, D5, S3 T20, M13 BD 8/31/18 EA Discovered 9/13/18 Mediation 10/3/18 W files for D 10/12/18 W moves out 11/10/18 EA confirmed 12/25/18 D Final 1/10/19