It's been two weeks since I last had an emotional crash. I am not sure if it is because I am blissfully ignorant of what W is doing or something else, like W's medical issues last week. I know that I am not seeing her have a "aha" moment, even though I was secretly hoping for one.
I am still making mistakes with W, like making small talk (force of habit) and doing "nice things", like giving her an extra soda I bought from the store (2 for 1 sale but whatever). So...more stuff to work on.
I saw myself naked this morning in the mirror before I hopped into the shower. I saw the improvements I am making, but I still see my imperfections and tell myself "yeah...you have a lot of work to do because you're not impressing anyone with what you have going on." Maybe I am extremely harsh on myself. Maybe I should post a censored pic on Reddit and ask for feedback. I don't know. I know looks are not everything, but for first impressions, it has to mean a lot. Right?
