It's a lot to digest. We can only see your written words but having been going through this for several years I can imagine all the devastation, emotions, and pain you're feeling. Plus your early - mid 30's are such an exciting time in life. It's right when a lot of people are having kids, buying their first house, and thriving in their careers. That's exactly what you describe about you and your wife. To be at that point and then have all your dreams thrown away is about more than just a failed relationship. It's an interruption to everything you envisioned about your life leading up to this point. It doesn't sound like you've done anything wrong to deserve this. It's good you have family and friends who are supportive and who see the truth about what's happened. I hope you take the time you need to grieve and also try to imagine a future with a woman who is 100% committed to you and wants the same things you do. I hope you'll get through this terrible experience and then live happily ever after with a new beautiful and kind woman if your wife can't figure out what she's losing.
