I guess I’m in the roller-coaster phase. Some moments I feel optimistic and unstoppable, and I feel like I am so amazing and utterly desirable.
And then there are moments where I’m like “WHY?!?!?!” or “I’m so alone—man this is the worst and will it ever get better?”
In time, yes it will get better, but right now....
Seeing the boys, especially the YS helps—glad to know I’m needed by them and that at least YS wants to be held by me and fall asleep with me (he did so early this morning).
I’m also sure more sleep will help my mood—between YS care and backed-up grading, sleep will be at a premium the next couple of weeks.
