13 yrs and two kids pt. 2.

[Hurt213]

Update:

Thank you guys, so much, for your very solid and thoughtful advice on what went down today. Luckily, I didn't take the bait, and even though, I in the future will back off and not reply until having asked here, then looking at back at my response, I think it was okay after all. When i skim over the letter, it really is just a big "Oh I did something bad, forgive me, so I can stay in this without feeling so guilty" kinda letter. There is no real substance to it, and the way she praises me, it just comes off as such fake gestures when I look back at how she communicated to me verbally and with her actions over the course of the past 3 - 4 months. I am glad to say with full honesty, that this letter did nothing to my feelings, and that is assuring to me.

When I came home today, I had fun with the kids, and read them a story. She tried to engage in talk, and twice said, that she really would love to spend my birthday with me, but if I didn't want to, then she would go visit a girlfriend, that had asked if she would come by. I told her that it would be great if she visited her friend. She then proceeded to say, that I should think about it and not answer right now... well i just fukcn answered you woman........... that put me on a little tilt, but im done showing her.

I was making the kids lunchboxes for tomorrow when she asked if I wanted a cup of coffee. I said I would make one when I was done. She then made one, and stood behind me and said "Hurt, can I tell you something?" I thought, what now.... she then said "you have really gotten broad shoulders from all your training, and not in a bad way at all, its really nice." I just said, "thanks". She then wanted to show me that she had hung up a christmas scratch calendar for me that she bought today... Welcome to wacky wacky town....... I had none of it, answered her politely but tried to stay with the kids in rooms separate from her.

Now Im about to tug in d4, WW has left the house to help her relatives with something, and I am gonna be in the MBR tonight watching a movie, eating a bowl of nachos (cheat nights are awesome! :D), and early sleep. She agreed to take the kids tomorrow morning (well I asked if she would be home tomorrow morning) so I could get an early workout done before work - I was amazed, since its my week with the kids, but she hasn't been at OMs place since friday <-- Doesn't matter, I would prefer her there at the moment to be honest.

So yea, what is going on... Temp check monday (laughing while i type this).

Thank you all for being the most awesome support group in the whole world by the way. I am seeing the light, and I love it. I feel like, WW would be nice to have around (if she cleaned up and redeemed herself), but it would only be nice, it wouldn't be necessary for me to have a life that I want. Maybe that is what is stirring things up, I don't know.