Your post really struck a chord with me FS. The rewriting history...it is a big part of it. And also there being too much momentum. That is ultimately what pushed my H out the door. He felt like he had done the hard part (leaving) and that he needed to push forward regardless of any contradictory feelings he might have been having. He has been contemplating this for so long and shutting down his heart, he could not imagine ever feeling any different. So...here we are. Yes...lots unsaid. But also pointless to say it in some ways. I still think this is not over for you and him. But I also know that you need to continue on your forced journey just like I do. It s#cks. Things could so easily be different. But they aren’t and this is our reality. Stay strong. You are doing great!! (((FS)))
