I've been having a few health 'issues' over the past while.
Last week I called NHS24 because of them and was referred to an out of hours walk in. The doctor I saw there suggested it might be perimenopause and gave me some medication to help me out temporarily. My GP said I was too young. So nobody knows anything really...lol!
Anyway, it's been interfering with my life a fair bit (stopping me going to the gym, making plans...) and it's resulted in me feeling a little stressed out and down.
I had a long, busy and stressful working day yesterday and WM made us a very delicious dinner in the evening, from a new recipe that neither of us had tried before. I chatted about it a little last night, and he was lovely about it.
But I feel like it's triggered some sort of low level anxiety in me and made me worry about the future. Maybe it's because I don't feel like I have any control over it? Maybe because it's reminded me that things are changing in my life, whilst OW seems to have fulfilled some sort of supercharged maternal role for XH that I was never going to fulfill? Maybe I feel like that because I've not been able to get to the gym as much, or go running as much and it's that that is affecting my outlook? Maybe I also feel like this because it's winter and the days are really short with not much sunshine? Or a combination of all of those things? I'm feeling out of sorts with myself and uneasy too.
Anyway, I also started a big chunk of work on Friday. And that's going really well. What I earn from this in December will be what sees me through January (and possibly February as well, if I'm careful).
Today is my day off, and I have a few things to be getting on with, and in my favourite kind of way...by getting out a fair bit and going from one place to the next, so I'll be seeing plenty of daylight. I'm also still feeling the benefit from the medication the walk in doctor prescribed me, so I'm going to wear my workout stuff today so I can go to the gym after I've finished everything I need to do.
Funny how exercise has become such an integral part of my life now. I never would have imagined that even just three years ago.
