Whirlwind of Hurt 5

[Twofeet]

I started to spiral out of control with the whole std thing today. It was bad enough that I had to step away from the kids to cry. Now as far as I know she doesn't have one, but if her issues and her rounds of prescription treatments weren't what I thought they were for then it is possible. That and I can't get her CC company to stop notifying me of her charges and she is buying some weird things. It's the implication that got my mind running. For a bit it felt like BD day 1 or 2 all over again. It took a lot of mental fortitude to pull myself together along with some GAL with the kids. I had to keep telling myself I dont own her, she is not mine, she is free to do as she pleases even if it a mistake/regret. I am doing better now but those thoughts and feelings are still there just sitting in the periphery.