I feel the same way Grace. Most of the time I hope he is better, but some of the time I hope he is suffering alone too. Did some Christmas shopping today. It was tough. My heart really isn’t in it this year. Just want to hit the fast forward button and get it over with. I’m also having a New Year’s party. Heart is also not that in it but...it is better than sitting around wondering what my H is doing and who he is kissing at midnight. Funny... we spent last New Year’s Eve together in Mexico but I’m pretty sure he wasn’t home for two or three New Year’s before that. I thought he was getting medical treatment. I will never know what he was really doing. Probably at a party of friends he never introduced to me. Wow. He really was not a good husband. He also missed a couple of Christmases and Christmas Eves. I spent the latter with his family members. So I guess I shouldn’t be too upset about this year. It is what I am used to.
FS... It struck me reading your post that your H is really enjoying the best of both worlds. I totally get it because I would probably be okay if my H wanted to hang out with me and the kids more too. But still... he is leading the single life AND he is leading the married life. I think my H has likely changed his address for some things as he isn’t getting much mail here these days. I guess it is practical. Still... one more step... (((HUGS)))
