Now I find myself being hijacked by my own amygdala. W sent an email asking if we could meet to talk about R stuff.
I thanked her for her note, but suggested we should meet and talk in the presence of the therapist. I appreciate W's good faith and intentions, but I am not quite at the space where I trust her emotional responses. In the early months, any statement I made, however seemingly innocuous, would be taken as an attack.
I do want to finally communicate the impact her choice to walk away has had on me. Not to cast blame or to hold on to grievances, but to highlight that her choices have had consequences on me and our family. Whether she chooses to take agency over those decisions is up to her, but I think she would be more receptive to hearing me in the safe space our therapist is able to create.
I pray for patience. As many have pointed out, this is a marathon, not a sprint.
