Whirlwind of Hurt 5

[Twofeet]

Well not much is new, but I feel like posting.

My GAL activities are becoming less social. I feel that this is ok because I am focusing on rebuilding myself and self care. Typical no kids day during the weekday is work, workout, make dinner, read, bed. Kids days are the same, but everything is squeezed to include quality time with them. Weekends are usually focused on GAL with kids and visiting family with kids. My time is working out, visiting family, housework, errands, reading, occasional friend visits. Going to start trying to make more time for my woodworking hobby this month. Winter outdoor activities will be kicking in soon as well. I saw a meetup group related to my industry so I have been kicking around the idea of attending as it would be a good way to meet new people and socialize. Going to head oot this week for a multiday work function/party. It should be fun, but I just have to keep the drinking to a minimum as the people in my company like to party hard and I don't.

As far as W goes she is just being a giant PITA. I don't like saying it, but she is being a boderline b!tch. It has been as painful as pulling teeth to W to sit down and talk school finances, but we finally got it done. She also owes me money for CS (which is really almost nothing) and her half of some kid related expenses ( this is more $ than CS). Need to get the kids winter boots, I feel like this should be a shared expense. She wants me to pay for it because she went and spent $100-$200 on clothes for D8. This was ABSOLUTELY unneeded. Our girls have so much clothing its ridiculous. After W left and we split clothing each D half of clothing is still way more than my entire wardrobe. Anyway wife sent over a spreadsheet for the year showing who has the kids for the year. It didn't follow the family plan we submit to the state. I put it in the cozi calendar which W refuses to use or import to her outlook calendar. W wants to know to why I use it. I tell her its family friendly, with a family journal and D8 like use it on her tablet. Anyway W rearranged xmas holiday so I am going to have to put my foot down. I told W she needs to look at cozi because it follows the family plan. Her response is that she is too busy. I know for a fact that is total B.S. Asked W what she wanted our xmas budget to be on the kids, her response I don't know, I don't have much $ so go ahead and spend more than me. Hey W how do you want to handle Santa Claus present? I dunno, I need to think about it. She wanted us to originally either coordinate gifts or stay on the same budget so we dont one up each other. So much for that, looks like she just wants me to pay for everything. Feels like we might get into a standoff.

W doesn't have a lot of vacation time or doesn't want to use it so she is going to be leaving the kids with me on some of her days during the break. As long as I don't have plans I think it's great to spend extra time with them during the holiday break, and it saves money on child care. We used to do this during our MR as well.

Last note I need to go get my annual physical this month. I am going to ask for an STD screening. W has been my only partner, but BD to move out and possibly beyond she was dealing with a flare up of a reoccurring feminine health issue. Post BD she would blame me and the stress for her issue at that time. I cant just ask her if she contracted something, she wouldn't give a straight answer anyway. Needless to say it couldn't hurt to get myself checked out to make sure it was just her own issues and I haven't contracted something from her, as I guess some STD/STI often don't show up in men.