Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 3

[Turbine]

Home alone. Really is the pits. I could do something really stupid and permanent and no one would be able to change it. Some days hurt far more than others. I keep reading that it will get better. Emotional hurricane, cat ??? and it feels like I am out here ins a stinking little one man life raft like the pilots had in WWII. Wish it were a carrier to ride it out in better, or a sub and just dive below all this.

Off topic quickly. RIP Pres. Bush (41). I served under 40, 41 and 42 during my time in the Navy.

Lawyers have a court date and need paperwork form me. I guess that is jamming the throttle on today's ride. Is the only way to fix that is to do the required garbage paperwork?

Asking You to speed this up isn't how this works. All on Your time according to Your plan. So can I ask for and get the strength to handle today God. Looking at the sand there is one set of footprints. I want to walk with you , not be carried by you.