Weathering the storm (pain18 DB VIII)

[Phoenix9]

Here's your homework:1. List the 5 things that you are most passionate about, the things that make you YOU.

1. My warmth and caring personality. Empathy and listening.
2. My sense of wit and humor and using that to make people laugh.
3. My photography.
4. My ability to carry a good conversation.
5. My kick-ass parenting.

2. List the 5 things that you hate most about yourself.

1. My lack of patience.
2. My "whiplash" of handling difficult situations. To a point where it is almost hypocritical.
3. My inability to forgive for a very long period for words or actions that deeply hurt me. This includes forgiving myself.
4. My apprehensiveness of making difficult decisions considering the fact that I make it based on making as many people happy with me as possible.
5. My anger.

3. List the 5 people who love you most.

1. My D4
2. My parents
3. My cousin who is like a brother to me.
4. My co-workers from my old job.
5. My friends

(I would say W. I think she still loves me, but I am not going to make assumptions.)

4. For each of those 5 people, ask yourself: what's more important to them, List 1 or List 2? And if you did NOTHING from List 2, would they love you more? And if you did NOTHING from List 1, would they love you less?

1. List 1. She is too young to really understand everything from List 2 except 5. When I get angry, it hurts her and she shows it by crying. D4 loves me period. As she grows and gets exposed to the other items on the list, it may change.
2. List 1. My parents love me the same. They just want me to be happier. List 2 is poisonous to my well-being and hurts me. They do not want to see their S hurt.
3. List 1. Same as 2.
4. List 1. If I did nothing from List 1, they would not really associate themselves with me. Who would love that person?
5. Same as 4.