Thanks for the support and hugs. I spent 12 years in the Navy but that was long ago. Still some habits are so ingrained that they never leave. Short sleep hours or an irregular schedule. Paying attention to ow things sound where I am. How I tell time, answer correct instead of right.
Everyone,
Caught up to Gordie's thread #12. so much to absorb and look at for what to do and not to do. Really interested in how his story is now. But jumping ahead would be like reading a mystery novel last chapter and then reading the whole book. In this case the journey is more important. All of our journeys actually.
Still not very detached. W is always on my mind. Nostalgia? Grieving? Wishful thinking? Who knows...
I miss her. Talking to her. Just being with her and doing stuff. Not the arguing or disagreements that got out of hand. This morning I had cleaned of her car and warned her about the driveway being slippery. No response. Trying to be friendly neighbor. Do I have expectations? Would you believe me is I said I didn't and don't? If so I have a bridge we can talk about. Famous bridge... really flexible too.
So are my posts getting better? To write or to read? I can only answer about the write side of it. That part is yea, a little bit easier.
So I pray now, far more than I did for a long time. Part of what I pray for is a stronger relationship with God and Jesus. I pray for a stronger love for my W. I pray her heart is softened and we turn from this path. I pray that what I ask is in accordance with His plan and that I accept his Plan even if it isn't what I would like to see.
Feeling a lot calmer most days. That's a good thing. having to do the D paperwork... you all know how that feels.
H (me) 56 ; W 54 ; M 32 ; D 32 ; D 30 ; S 21 ; Grandkids: 12, 11, 10, 8, 1
