I do have an idea of your feelings and thanks. I was once where you are, I know what you are facing. I receive much hard earned wisdom from many good people and could not accurately express how much it helped, there was just too much going on in my mind and heart.
Keep focus on yourself and breathe.
You are doing great.
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
