Is love worth the pain? Back to Basics

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So what do I say in MC I want to say all the stuff I believe she needs to see an IC for that she holds in. I wrote about 5 min of notes in my phone. I kind of want to say them and walk out of the therapy session like you need to be on this couch. I’ve been doing individuals. With love and respect Im out.

Her mom hit her as a kid she was taught be seen but not heard. Her mom left her dad in the middle of the night. She has post partum. She got an abortion. She got in a drunk driving accident. She has been in unhealthy relationships. She struggles with talking about this stuff at all. No one knows her true life... except me. She hides her struggles and puts on her happy face but at times she’s dying inside and has told me. Everyone thinks she’s fine and she chooses not to talk about it and has anxiety. I don’t think anything will improve between us unless she gets IC. She has to work on things like communication that go as far back as childhood. I honestly don’t see her doing it. I talked to my brother for an hour. He was like if you close your eyes and picture it can you see W at thanksgiving sinner with our fam and cousins. Neither of us could see it. She holds things in and they fester and become worse. She did this before she left she used to cry in the bathroom and hide it from me. I told her I didn’t feel anything a couple weeks ago between us and she responded by getting on dating apps to look for me - her words. Communication is a huge issue and always has been. I’m tired of being blamed for everything. She’s done a lot of [censored] up [censored]. If we divorce I don’t see things getting better for her and I’ll have her as a coparent. I guess this is fixer white knight syndrome. So I just say nothing and dB try to get over her.