Hi Neffer. Really appreciate reading about your journey. Wondering if you have read any of my sitch? It would be great to have your insights. My H has been emotionally "gone" for four years at least. I want to keep hope alive but, at the same time, I feel like doing so really gets in my way and is setting me up for more bomb days ahead. So how does one let go but still maintain some kind of hope? It seems to me that the two are not compatible.