Woke up and thought about my words, asked myself am I giving myself time or am I acting again. I think I need to slow it down and when I want to do something, sit on it for a few days, share it and see what you think.

Maybe I need to ask myself what does standing mean to me? Is wanting to work on the marriage or waiting, is this allowing myself to be in an open marriage?

It’s only a few weeks since I’ve been here and I still have a lot to learn, to detach, to get a life. Not to say I won’t pull the trigger, I know if I do she won’t work on the marriage. If I know this, does this mean I am the one giving up if I’m forcing this to happen?

I’ll get the boundaries book and work on the lawyer ASAP.

H 49 , W 47
T 23, M 17
S11, S5
BD: 7/18
IHS: 7/18 - 3/19
Physically Separated: 3/19-4/19
Piecing: 4/19 - Current

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