13 yrs and two kids pt. 2.

[Hurt213]

Journal:

Thank you all for the encouraging words.

So yea, I am just venting since a few things went down since yesterday.

So basically, we were discussing what days we were having with the kids in the Christmas holiday that is coming up. Apparently she is going out of town with OM, because it is all too much for her, not having the kids. She decided it would be okay, to just plot the days I could have, and then that was all jolly. Eh.. Fuchk no! I said to her, that it was really manipulative of her, and how in the world, she had imagined that I would be okay with that. We communicate, we come to an agreement, and thats it - she doesn't get to just do whatever the hell she wants to. On the 25th of december we have a christmas gathering and in the evening there is another party I would really like to attend, so I asked her, if she could take the kids, just for the evening, I would take them through the day, and then I wouldn't mind the other days, that she had plotted in the calendar, even though I would have to rearrange some stuff. She just said plain and simple, that she was out of town on the 25, and that there was nothing she could do nor did she want to.

I could see this was going nowhere, so I ended up just saying, fine whatever, but this is never happening again - Then today I get a text from her, where she says, that she will take them on the 25 because I have the party (which I have now cancelled), and then she wants to change 3 of the days, where I had now rearranged plans for her sake. I said, absolutely not. I don't care about you and OM's plans and how they must have changed since, you are all of a sudden willing to help out, why don't you try and be honest. <-- To that she replied, "honesty? yea well then I don't want the kids for the days we planned, because I made new plans"

She said that she was sorry about the fuzz, and that she was just learning to having to seperate time with the kids and that was why. I simply told her to have just an inch of respect for what she and I used to be. and it was really hurtful that she was lying to me and manipulating. It didn't have anything to do with "learning", it was about OM and her plans, and that they had changed - I wasn't stupid.

She then just said "Sorry" to which I replied "Sorry, but those words are empty to me, I know you don't mean them".

She then in all seriousness, asked me, if my sister could take the kids for two days because she was going with OM. I said that I would take them, because I appreciated spending time with my kids. But if she ever chose to use my sister as a place to dump our kids, so she could go out and be 17 years old and gone wild, then her and I would have a major problem. the I told her to grow up. I never got any responses.

I was informed yesterday, that she is using me in her relationship with OM. I don't really care I just pity her. Apparently he won't put a label on what they are. She is basically just comfort and a good time, but she wants it to be more. She is now manipulating him by apparently saying, how interesting I have become, how me going to the gym all the time has really made me so good looking, and that she wants to see if I will spent new years with her. All just to make him jealous, I was like WTF.

Yesterday she broke down in the living room and I just said, you made some choices, own them, and you know what, everything is going to be great for me, and probably for you too. She just gasped "I won't be okay for a very long time...." I just left the living room at that point.

Messy update, but just venting. I really feel like, she is lying constantly to get her way with plans and OM and now it is taking its toll on my kids. I am really fed up. Who is this evil person.