Awww...Pain. My heart breaks for you. I do have a pretty good support system. My twin sister, for one, has been a rock and she is always there if I need her. My MIL is also someone who is always around and she has had a lot of experience with my H’s dad who is a lot like him. She has lived my experience to an extent and is able to support me without really getting involved in the dynamics between my H and I. Her main focus is her grandkids and she puts them first. I have no proof of an OW but I am not naive. If there is not one now, there will be one soon. My H relies on other people to prop up his ego and has a hard time looking inwards. If the best predictor of future behaviour is past behaviour, he will seek someone out when he feels he can get away with it. I hate thinking that about him. I would like to think that he is doing the work that he claims to be doing, but I am a realist. He just texted me a little while ago that he can’t see the kids tomorrow because he has meetings Afterschool and into the evening. Hmmm... not sure I buy it but it doesn’t really matter anyway. Not my circus, not my monkeys.
RE: the woman you once loved acting like this. Sad to say but she is not that woman anymore. That woman is gone and has been replaced by this new version. I wish I could say “improved” but we both know that is not the case. Take care of you first. You have NO ideal what the future has in store for you. I believe it will be a better future regardless. Let your W go. She has to do this for whatever reason. Let go of the need to control the outcome and have faith that everything will unfold as it should. (((HUGS)))
