Feeling better today. Not so distracted at work. Really working hard on a PMA and trying not to go down the road of "what ifs". Saw my H briefly this morning. I said "hi" when he got there but exited the room before he left. He probably thought I was intentionally ignoring him but I wasn't. There is just nothing to say really.
This happens to me sometimes. Not sure if it is because there is nothing to say, or because it generally happens during pick ups (and I am normally in a rush) or because I can't stand the awkward silences. Sometimes it happens in the car. He will try and make conversation and I just go "hmmn, yeah, maybe" (generally to a comment on something said on the radio, or the state of the traffic). It always makes me feel like he must think I am ignoring him. Not that I should care.
Originally Posted by DejaVu6
I signed up for my first meet-up hike on Sunday. Looking forward to it. There are about six women going so far... I know none of them so it will be exciting to meet new people.
This sounds brill. The one and only meet up group I went to was an over 30's social group. The blurb said "we meet up for dinner, movies, to watch bands and for pub crawls". I was seriously miss-sold. It was a singles dating group. I felt like a piece of meat. If I were to try it again I would probably join a hiking group too.
Focus on the future you have, the things you have and the people you have. Here, let me start your list for you ...
1. You have a beautiful home by the sea (if I remember correctly). BTW - of all the things I miss about home, the ocean is near, if not top of, my list 2. You will have enough money to live by (not as much, but enough) 3. You have two beautiful children who, from the sounds of it, are as caring and as warm as you are 4. You have a sister who loves you and a MIL who has stood by you 5. You have a job which is (from what I can tell) is your true calling 6. You are a pretty decent pool player 7. You have not only reached, but gone below your target weight
and lastly ...
8. You have made my life a little brighter
Your future, with or without your H, is one where you will be an independent woman who makes her own decisions, lives her life according to her values, and does not have to defer to ANYONE.
Oh lastly, I think you mentioned you were fearful of re-entering the dating world because you thought people would see your age on a dating profile and be turned off. Nothing further from the truth. I know a lot of divorced/separated women in their 50's and most of them are inundated with offers. If what you want is a little company, you will find people out there willing to offer that, if what you want is a bit more serious, then there are people out there looking for that too. Personally, I am a little old fashioned in that I would prefer something a little more organic, a little less commoditized but, apparently, that is how people meet one another these days.
