I know. I bounce back and forth about what I want to do. Right now. I want to dump her ass. But I am also emotional (rage). One of the primary rules of this process is not to make any decisions based on emotions. I know what I can lost. I also know that W wants no-contest if we go that route. We had a convo on this about a month ago when we were figuring over D4 seeing OM.
Ryan,
I know I’m not detached yet. If you look through the Quotes page you’ll find the DB process timeline. For the longest time, I thought I was in step 5-7 when in reality I was clearly in steps 2-4. It wasn’t until I saw her emails and telling her she was a cheater when when I started to let go. I don’t want to help her. She has to help her. I just need to continue the detaching process, like the account separation. I see her lost, but I also see someone who decided long ago to go down this path and she is starting to get punished for it. I also see someone who is extremely selfish, a liar, a manipulator, and a two-faced cheater. She planned this. She made me feel awful for my mistakes and put me through something she KNEW was going to cause me pain. It took me 30+ YEARS to forgive my parents for the crap they pulled. But they still loved me.
I don’t know what I’m going to do about this. I just know I need to calm down first.
