I am resigned to that fact though as I see no other alternative.
I know that regardless, I will be fine and my kids will be fine. I am just tired. My career has suffered over the last 18 months immensely and I just need to get that back going. Her issues are just that, her issues. If we are still married, separated or not, I don't know how to do that and I believe I will be sucked back in and used more.
does that make any sense whatsoever?
Yes and no.
However, until you can answer the question with a yes, you are not ready to file....jointly or otherwise.
Do not file for D thinking it will end your pain. It will not. And certainly do not push for filing to evoke a response from her. It will backfire. Until you can answer yes to that question, make her do the work. If she wants a D let her do the filing, the paperwork, everything. Don't help with something you don't want.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018