A familiar story with questions EIGHT

[RR17]

In my GAL, 180, self-exploration journey, I have begun exploring my early childhood relationships and how they affect me now as well as my MR and other adult Rs. All in an effort to better understand and correct my faults. Besides we don't all suffer from NGS.

Well, the forces that be have led me to learn about Adult Children of Narcissistic Parents. Heady stuff indeed.

We all show tendencies for different behaviors at different times and it is easy to read or hear a certain prognosis and think, "that sounds like me". Much like reading a horoscope, generalizations about the human condition are easily applied. Seems we are all more alike than we are different, as like we tend to believe. Hence the similarities in all our stitches.

Anyway, I will say that I have heard some insightful stuff.
As those that read here may remember my father died a year ago this month. I think I am gaining an understanding about our relationship and negative behaviors that I have brought to my MR. There is even some insight into why W was attracted to me in the first place. Why I feel the need to control many situations and motivations about my parenting style. At times it can get a bit scary and I have to step away from the book. In fact, the desire to dissect myself, my W and other people may very well stem from my father-son dynamic.

So I am posting this to both document my journey and suggest to anyone else here that thinks it may apply, that it may be worth a look. Introspection can be a good way to take one's mind off MR sitch and become a more balanced person.