Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 3

[Turbine]

After a short day at work I got home to find the driveway hadn't been worked on . Disappointed yes. So I grabbed a shovel and dug out some more.

This morning I see that the little bit on the side was dug out so my W could get past her brother's car. Really???

Expectation level too high or just looking for common decency? Beats the daylights out of me.

So reading DB in prep to calling a coach. At the start of Chapter 8, Step 7. I need to make sure I am not going on autopilot. So dangerous per MWD. Feel like I am backsliding or maybe burning out. Could even be just frustration with rate of progress. Or lack of noticeable progress. Reading is getting so difficult right now considering the material being presented.

Makes me wonder. Am I doing this for me? For her? Is this the right reason?

W can be incredibly stubborn and when she says something she generally means it. So when she said never getting back together... Does that fit into the believe nothing they say and half of what they do? I mean she hasn't moved out of the house. We don't talk to each other worth mentioning. Maybe I am playing that amount down. Got to think about that one.

Am I wasting my time on trying to save the whole thing and this is now just for me?