Thank you Harvey and Burned for your encouragement. It is wonderful to know that there are still some really good men out there. FS...you are a God send...you really are. Thank you for taking the time and for always picking me up when I am down. Your H is a fool of epic proportions.
I just had a glass of wine and a nice dinner with my MIL. She has been such a support for me and is the one person I can talk to about all of this because A) She lived the entire thing right along with me and was basically my H’s replacement for the years he was gone and B) She loves him too...despite it all. And she can’t really talk to anyone either because she is so ashamed of the things he has done. So we are helping each other through this. I felt ten times better after hanging out with her and then I went upstairs and my D10 and I put up our huge Christmas tree (only one scratch on my arm) and then high-fived each other... “We don’t need a man to put this up for us!!” It was so fun. I hope she remembers that when she gets older. That she can be independent and strong and doesn’t need someone else to make her that way. Above all else, I want her to know her worth and for her to live her life in an honest and compassionate way. She and her brother are the lights of my life so I will get my sh*t together for them if for no other reason.
I think I am going to have a pretty good sleep tonight. Much love to you all!!!
