I should have thought ahead and had plans tonight. After the holiday long weekend where I was able to keep busy, returning home after a normal day at work was panic-inducing. I looked over to a side table and it looked strange. W took a decorative plate that used to sit there, which was hers. I don't know why that stupid thing hit me but my heart started pounding and I felt like the walls were closing in. I had to do some deep breathing.
I think I was on the forum too long today, this is all I am thinking about. I need to focus on what's next, not wallow in the fact that this is happening. I'm still playing catch-up to the change that took place in W's personality, and I'm fighting denial because I still think she will come out of this. Logic and my heart are duking it out. In my mind this is a 6 month separation, and by next summer we'll be back to reconciling. I know I don't actually know, but I think I need to slowly kick that idea out.
I'm trying to GAL but I need to kick it into high gear. I've always preferred solo activities, but that won't cut it right now. What I really need is to work on making new friends. I have my parents who regularly ask me to hang out. I have my brother and wonderful future sis-in-law who are also local and ask me to hang out regularly. And I have 1 very close friend who has been supportive but is also a mom of a 3 year old and of course has her own life. My colleagues are supportive at work but I need more friendly faces for after work. That should be my continued focus.
This week I will: 1) Contact L for consult 2) Exercise at least 2 days 3) Continue identifying GAL activities that don't cost a million dollars
Any ideas for 30 somethings where I can regularly attend to meet people, but maybe isn't super expensive? Things I already do that are solo activities:
*Take online web programming classes (I work at a uni), *Pursue Salesforce Admin skills via Trailhead *Avid knitter *reconnecting with bassoon playing *Go to opera films *Go to library
