Finding the Balance and then Tipping the Scale

[Adam04]

Update: two hours in, thought about her or things related to her maybe between 25-50 times and I'd switch to a mental picture of something else, that drawing, I even sketched and doodles, and I can quickly disengage. But thoughts just keep coming. It used to be that when they do, I accept things, try not to dwell, try to see what I did wrong, learn from it, embrace it. I know in time things will be less and less. Maybe I don't want to count on time. When things were good I thought time was on my side, can't just rely on that. I think of her and I whisper block it block it block it, then think of something to refocus.