Pain... I so know where you are at. I am a completely non violent person but I have had some serious daydreams about pummeling my H to a pulp or stabbing him. It is quite frightening really. This pain is awful...it really is. But it is very much about us and what we focus on and tell ourselves. My H has lied to my face day in and day out for four years. Is there an OW? He says no but it would not surprise me in the least. I don’t ask anymore. It makes no difference to my life day-to-day - just to my pain. And I have more than I need. Yesterday I threw myself a HUGE pity party. It lasted all day and woke me up after three hours sleep. Today is a new day. I am back to working on dropping the rope. I know I will get there....and you will too. Picture yourself doing that instead of causing her pain. If you love her, REALLY love her, you will find a way. And then you too will be free. WE CAN DO THIS!!!
