Day 119

Came back from my vacation yesterday night. W tried to make small talk about D4. I responded. Five text exchanges before the night was over.

Today I took D4 to church to teach a class. No W. She said she had to run errands and was doing to be coming home late. Whatever. Nothing has changed.

I am full of anger. Want her to suffer the consequences for what she has put me through. I am not ready to forgive and I get angrier at the fact that she continues to disrespect me.

These days are becoming the norm. I hate that feeling. I hate that it's going on nearly a year and things are just as complicated and painful as it was all year.

Difference is, now I'm focused more on myself.


1/6/18-BD OM1
2/18-W meets OM2
4/18-W intros D4 to OM2
5/18-“Romance ends"
7/18-DB start
7/18-IHS Ends
4/19-WW moves out
3/21-D filed

Formerly pain18

Rise.