Hope you're starting to feel a little better. You're right; this is hard enough when you're feeling well. I think you need to give yourself a break and not worry that you are feeling sad. You have turned a corner but of course you are going to have days when you mourn. Let them happen. You are a loving human being, not a robot. I still have sad days. I cried the other night because there was a song on the TV from Les Miserables which we saw in 1988 when courting. But the sadness has changed. Now it's gentle tears whereas it used to be body engulfing sobbing. Also, I cry for what has been in the past, not about the lost future, if that makes sense. But that only changed with time.
Don't rush yourself. Give yourself time to get used to the new status quo. You don't have to sort out everything at once. Just look after yourself for now and concentrate on trying not to over do it when you're feeling poorly.
