Had a decent day with S today putting up Christmas decorations. Had a nice day weather wise so was able to do outside lights and then decorate Christmas tree in the evening. Picked up new stockings that S picked out. Came to find that W had taken a lot of the decorations when she moved out.
Other GAL activities included a 6 mile run at gym, men’s group, and walking the dog while son rode his bike.
One item I found while getting Xmas decorations out was a journal that W had started writing in 10 years back. I couldnt help myself from reading her journal entries from 09 until 2013. There were only 20 entries during that frame as W would tend to pick something up but never stick with it....however some of them were reveling as to her mindset during that period in which I would have never of known. It’s crazy that I reflect back at those moments in time and didn’t realize how she truly felt. A common theme was she felt alone. And I feel horrible I wasn’t present enough to recognize it at the time.
I won’t beat myself up over it...as what’s done is done...but man was that a slap in the face as to see the roadmap in what has led to my current reality.
Last edited by EZdozit; 11/25/1807:24 AM.
Me - 38 W-37 S6 M 10 years T 13yrs BD 3/18 W moves out 4/18 W files 7/18
