Thank you Grace. Man...this has been a really tough day. My H is on my mind way too much. I keep getting to a good place in my mind and then suddenly I am back to feeling alone and sad. I am really, really struggling today. A lot of grief that I usually don’t let myself feel. I think this is me...losing hope...starting to really comprehend that this may be the end. I am sitting here in my dream home...what was supposed to be our dream home... and it is beautiful but if feels just so darn empty. I know I have to let go. I have to let go of everything that I have planned and thought about for all the years that I was waiting for my H to come home. I wish I could just go away somewhere. Stir on a warm beach and soak up some sun. Gosh... I feel like such a victim right now. My H called me strong and stoic. I am so not feeling that right now.
